Why yes, it was... not that anyone is actually reading.
I've stopped advertising the link to this place ages ago...
Despite the long break, the blog has been on my mind. I simply haven't been up to writing about life through the year but I think I finally calmed down and found enough equilibrium to actually think about what has been going on in my little corner of life.
It has been a time of significant change.
It started at the very beginning of this year when I've been feeling stale. I focued a lot on socialising the year before but those attempts failed. I wanted to get out of the work culture I was in at the time because it was dragging me down. The focus on alcohol, parties and sex fostered a sense of isolation and rejection that chipped away at my self-worth.
I wanted to change that but when searching for connections and understanding, someone would inevitably ask me what I do for a living and that turned my demeanor sombre. I felt trapped. Eventually, I stopped going to the few events I was interested in.
As I couldn't find my place socially, I thought I'll try to find it professionally. At the end of my teaching course, we were told that the best time to seek employment with schools is at the beginning of the year because it's when they start planning for the Easter and Summer periods. I wrote a cover letter, printed it and my CV out and mailed it to every school in town. I've had a lot of rejections but I also had an interview that I passed.
I was nervous but happy to teach for a week in March and throughout June and July. It was an interesting experience and a step in the right direction for me. My retail job was very understanding. They let me have as much time off as I could so I was teaching Monday to Friday and working at my old job one day over the weekend. Some weeks were very difficult to go through and I had to stop with my regular weekly activities during that time... but I survived...
Then my friend told me they were looking for new people to work in her office. I was unsure at first but in the end I decided to risk it and apply. Suffice to say I got the job and it has done wonders for me. I feel that my skills are put to good use, my financial situation is progressively improving and I'm overall a lot more productive lately. I'm not as tired after getting home as I used to be.
Life, however, is not all about work. I now have a cat at home so I'm finally a responsible adult with a job that finances my care of my baby. Having her around makes all the difference. On average I'm feeling less down than before I had her.
My gaming life has also improved, somehow. I'm meeting friends for games a lot more often. There are even times when it's so often I need to stop myself. Even buying materials for them (card sleeves, bags, storage boxes, paint, etc.) is not as much of a financial strain as it used to be.
It truly feels like things have improved...
